God is not afraid

I’ve learned a lot about life and people throughout the current pandemic, as I’m sure most of us have. But the one big thing that I keep noticing again and again is that fear invariably outworks itself in the form of control.

I’ve observed this in my own life before: the need to force all my unruly ducks into a row somehow because of my anxiety about some issue, or life in general. Over-exercising, under-eating, or rabidly purging belongings out of my house are some of the ways it shows—all of them poorly disguised attempts to control something.

I’m seeing it in just about all of us now.

In fear, some of us try to control the narrative we take in about the virus: we will only hear the parts that serve our desired and carefully curated point of view, and find ourselves “experts” or news articles to silence the rest.

In fear, some of us try to control the behavior of those around us: we will mock and shame people who are making different choices about social distancing than ourselves, or those who feel differently about the measures taken by our governing authorities.

In fear, some of us try to control our minute-by-minute experience of the extra time we have at home: we will keep to a rigorous schedule, strive after endless self-improvement, and attempt to force Covid-19 to serve our purposes.

All of these are understandable to me. It’s comforting to feel like we have the upper hand on our unseen threat. It’s comforting when other people’s choices align with our own. It’s comforting when the “experts” agree with us. In these we find a sense of security—albeit an artificial one.

And something else has become more understandable to me: The question, “Why would God let ____?”

I’m no stranger to this question; I’ve asked it plenty of times myself—but I have struggled to understand why it’s the question that so often stands between people and God. Those who reject God often seem to use some form of this question and its unsatisfactory answers as their justification for doing so. And it makes sense now.

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Because if we were God, we would control everything we possibly could. Our basic state as human beings involves some level of fear. This, I believe, is the reason the Bible so often refers to us as sheep: not because we are fundamentally idiots, but because we are fundamentally terrified, knowing full well our own helplessness, and it leads us to make some fundamentally idiotic choices. So if we were God, we would have stomped down Satan before he even had a thought to rebel. We would have created compliant robots who would never dream of eating the forbidden fruit. We would have set ourselves up as the tyrannical dictators of an unthinking population—it is the only way we could avoid feeling threatened.

But God is not afraid.

God is not afraid, therefore God doesn’t have the same innate need to control that you and I do. He is not like us. In His basic state, He is utterly sufficient by Himself; the angelic legions could abandon Him and the entire world could reject Him and He is still enough. He is relational, yes, but He is also Three in One, so even His relational nature can be satisfied without us. He did not create anything because He needed a power trip—He created it all because He wanted to, and He has given His Creation the gift of choosing what they want, too.

Why would God let only some people be saved? Because only some people choose Him, and He is okay with that. God is not afraid.

Why would God let something bad happen to someone good? Because we don’t all live in robotic bubbles, unaffected by the hurtful choices of those around us or before us, and He is okay with that. God is not afraid.

Why would God let evil exist in the first place? Because He invites us to know Him for who He is—and an important part of His character is His omnipotence. His power isn’t threatened by any opposing force, even one that costs Him dearly. God is not afraid.

And would we want Him any other way? When we acknowledge our own powerlessness, it becomes all the more soothing to know that we have a God who is both utterly powerful and utterly fearless. He doesn’t need to squelch every little threat with overbearing pseudo-control because He has real power, and He is entirely unthreatened.

All of our little controlling behaviors in light of the current world are normal and understandable. But they’re also unnecessary and can become destructive. If our God is unafraid, what have we to fear? What threat does a different viewpoint or a flexible schedule or even a novel virus hold? Our treasure is not in the opinions of others or in the achievements of this world or in life itself—it’s in Him. And He’s not afraid.


Want to learn more about who God is?

The best place to go is to the Word. The Bible is the story of who God is, and who God is changes everything for you and me.

To that end, I have a couple resources that may help you get started in your journey through the Bible:

  • The Bible180 Challenge is an opportunity to read through the Bible in 180 days, according to a thorough chronological schedule. You get a day of rest each week as well as an email offering accountability, support, and the very best study resources I’ve found to help you understand what you read. You can also use the Bible180 Challenge Journal to help you focus, stay on track, and build good study habits!

  • Bedrock: A Foundation for Independent Biblical Study is a comprehensive textbook/workbook that will teach you how to dig DEEP into each of the seven types of Biblical literature. It’s a great next step for anyone who feels ready to surpass the typical milk of sermons and Bible studies, and desires to learn how to serve themselves on the meat. Find it on Amazon.

bedrock

Two years ago I began to write, at long last, the book that had been waiting patiently inside my head since Bible school. Forty-five thousand words, dozens of rewrites, two cover designs, and three different formats later, it is finally complete.

Bedrock: A Foundation for Independent Biblical Study is now available on Amazon.

What is it? It’s a textbook and a workbook wrapped into one. It’s a journey through each of the seven types of Biblical literature using both concrete steps and Spirit-led study. It’s dense with practical instruction, but brightened with color and peppered with activities. It is a book for those who want to unearth the bedrock truth of who God is, because who God is changes everything about who we know ourselves to be and how we see our circumstances.

Bedrock is comprised of eight modules:

  • Module One: What is the Bible?

  • Module Two: The Study of Narrative

  • Module Three: The Study of Law

  • Module Four: The Study of Wisdom

  • Module Five: The Study of Poetry

  • Module Six: The Study of Lament

  • Module Seven: The Study of Prophecy

  • Module Eight: The Study of Epistle

The first module is designed to address some of the common preconceptions and blind spots of a would-be Bible student living in the postmodern Western world. From there, each of the seven remaining modules acts as a guide through a particular passage, with the goal of teaching a replicable study process that can be taken to any other passage of Scripture within that genre. In Module Two, for example, the student will thoroughly understand and break down the story of Gideon in Judges 6-8, but the same steps can be used to explore any other passage of narrative literature.

I wrote this book to be a little bit like Bible school for those who have never been to Bible school. To help you, no matter who you are or how much background you have with Scripture, independently discover and understand the timeless truths of the Bible as the Word of God. Bedrock is an opportunity to step back from the theological minutiae and academic semantics that can so easily distract us from truly knowing God’s heart and instead, take in the whole, sweeping vista of the Bible as a panoramic view of who God is and what He has done across human history.

This book is not an exhaustive work on the topic of the Bible or its interpretation—it’s just one of many resources that exist to help you understand what the Bible is and how to approach it for personal study. It is not a technical or academic book: In fact, it was purposely written to be the opposite, and to welcome believers of all backgrounds into a deeper knowledge of God’s Word. None of the terms or definitions in this book should be taken as scholarly or absolute; they are simply the best way I know how to use the everyday English language to communicate the vital concepts of independent Biblical study.

All that being said, it is a hefty course of study. It is thorough and detailed and will reward those who can give it the time and thought it demands. The beauty of it is that you can take it at whatever pace you wish; you can do it on your own or in a group; you can supplement it with other resources or just use it on its own.

Ultimately, I wrote this book because God put it on my heart, and because I believe He has a vision for how it can be used to help His people know Him more. If you’d like to see it for yourself, click here.

How to study the seven types of Biblical literature: A complete step by step guide

these are the days: march

I have three or four half-written blog posts drafted in the queue, but nothing I have to say seems meaningful enough to add to the media din that has only grown louder as the world draws itself inward. Thoughts on what it actually means to be the Church in a time when we can no longer substitute “going to church,” thoughts on how all I want is to write honestly but I hesitate to do so now that honesty feels like a currency, thoughts on whether or not there is a place for someone like me (by that, I mean a female Bible scholar who has been called to teach people how to study the Bible) in the Church at all… they’re all in there, waiting to be given voice lest they make my brain explode, but for whatever reason it doesn’t feel safe out here for them yet.

So these are the days of jotting down just enough notes to keep the lid on while I wait for the day that I’m brave enough to pour out. I remind myself that this website is mine to invite others into, and they may accept or decline as they see fit. I remind myself that I’m not being asked to write the inerrant Word of God, so I don’t have to say everything just right, or even be completely right—the grace I feel burdened to show others is abundant enough to cover me, too. I remind myself that there must be other people out there who are tired of hearing the same old Christianese teaching the same tired platitudes, and that I can’t possibly be the only one craving something a little more honest, more Biblical, less pristine. I can’t possibly be the only one with complicated or uncomfortable questions to ask—and I remember that Jesus Himself showed us pretty clearly just how much the devout can benefit from a healthy dose of discomfort.

For now, these are still days of quiet—quieter than I ever envisioned when I wrote my last post. The only thing breaking up my days and weeks is my work schedule, the only thing that holds a semblance of normal. Even that is abbreviated and interrupted by a week of being sick at home, feeling more than usual the pressure to keep my germs to myself, letting Bible180 be my church service and Zephaniah be my preacher and a simple “Let’s all agree to pray together in spirit at 2pm today” be my community.

Some of the daffodils have bloomed. I cut the last of the hyacinths for one more bouquet. Between rain showers I take quick walks through the garden to see what else is coming alive to prove that time really isn’t at a standstill, and that God really isn’t checked out of this mess. It is spring, and He is here.

Suggested Thinking

  • Matthew 23

  • Zephaniah