life and rebellion: a tale of two mothers

I’ve been studying the early chapters of Genesis rather extensively as part of my BibleProject class over the last couple of months. It may seem like an odd place to find foreshadowings of the Christmas story, but not if you’re a Bible nerd. After all, everything begins at the beginning.

This verse, in particular, has been making me think:

Now the man had relations with his wife Eve, and she conceived and gave birth to Cain, and she said, “I have gotten a manchild with [the help of] the Lord.”
- Genesis 4:1

One reason I’ve been dwelling on this verse so much is just the obvious translational liberties that have been taken with it—well-intended, but still risky. The bracketed words, “the help of,” do not exist in the Hebrew; they’re added by the translators in an effort to make the sentence make more sense to us. And the word “manchild” is actually just the ordinary Hebrew word for “man.” No reference to a child.

So let’s read it without those alterations:

Now the man had relations with his wife Eve, and she conceived and gave birth to Cain, and she said, “I have gotten a man with the Lord.”

The verb phrase have gotten is related to the same word used of God to denote His status as the source, Creator, and possessor of all things. And the word with, while it could mean with the Lord’s help as the translators have suggested, can also just mean in proximity to the Lord—or similar to what the Lord has done.

So there’s at least one alternative way of understanding Eve’s words: “I have made a man, just like God.” She whose name means “life” may have read a bit too much of her own press and believed that she really could create life, just like Yahweh.

Whether Eve saw Cain as a gift she acquired with the Lord’s help or as a boastworthy achievement that fulfilled her deep-seated longing to be “like God” (Genesis 3:5), we can make one educated guess: She was hopeful that this man would fulfill the words of the serpent’s curse and deliver the death-blow to the sin and deception she had welcomed into Paradise.

The Lord God said to the serpent, “Because you have done this, cursed are you more than all cattle, and more than every beast of the field; on your belly you will go, and dust you will eat all the days of your life; and I will put enmity between you and the woman, and between your seed and her seed; he shall bruise you on the head, and you shall bruise him on the heel.”
- Genesis 3:14-15

Could Cain be that victorious seed? Could Eve’s ill-advised grasp for power and wisdom on her own terms be reversed, and righteousness restored to God’s image-bearers?

No.

Instead, the man Eve created—the son of her fallen flesh—became the father of hatred, jealousy, and murder on the earth. Although his parents were the ones who fell, Cain himself is the first human to draw his first breath in a fallen state. When he raises his hand to kill his brother Abel, he kills all the remaining goodness in his life as well—his identity, his work, his relationships within his family—and is separated forever from the face of the Lord.

Eve goes on to bear more children and receive them with greater humility (Genesis 4:25), but the serpent lives on—and with him, thousands of years of brutality and bloodshed, jealousy and murder, hatred and division.

Until another young woman, whose name paradoxically derives from the word for “rebellion,” meets a being from the spiritual realm.

And the angel [Gabriel] said to her, “Do not be afraid, Mary, for you have found favor with God. And behold, you will conceive in your womb and give birth to a son, and you shall name Him Jesus. He will be great and will be called the Son of the Most High; and the Lord God will give Him the throne of His father David; and He will reign over the house of Jacob forever, and His kingdom will have no end.” But Mary said to the angel, “How will this be, since I am a virgin?” The angel answered and said to her, “The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you; for that reason also the holy Child will be called the Son of God.” … And Mary said, “Behold, the Lord’s bond-servant; may it be done to me according to your word.”
- Luke 1:30-35, 38a

Eve “created” a man through the flesh. Mary submitted herself as a vessel for the Son of Man through divine conception.

Eve thought her son would make her like God. Mary’s Son would be God Incarnate.

Eve hoped her son would rescue her from the consequences of her sin. Mary’s Son would wipe out the sins of all humanity.

Eve’s son became the father of murder and the instrument of the first human death. Mary’s Son became the Resurrection and the Life.

Eve’s son was the first in a long, long line of disappointments who never overcame the wiles of the serpent—but Mary’s Son was the One who, though wounded in the battle, finally crushed him.

And Mary said:

“My soul exalts the Lord,
And my spirit has rejoiced in God my Savior.
For He has had regard for the humble state of His bond-servant;
For behold, from now on all generations will call me blessed.
For the Mighty One has done great things for me;
And holy is His name.
And His mercy is to generation after generation
Toward those who fear Him.
He has done mighty deeds with His arm;
He has scattered those who were proud in the thoughts of their hearts.
He has brought down rulers from their thrones,
And has exalted those who were humble.
He has filled the hungry with good things,
And sent the rich away empty-handed.
He has given help to His servant Israel,
In remembrance of His mercy,
Just as He spoke to our fathers,
To Abraham and his descendants forever.”

- Luke 1:46-55

The woman named Life became the mother of death. The woman named Rebellion became the mother of salvation.

Where history would look back on Eve as one accursed, Mary knew from before Jesus was even born that she would be remembered as blessed among women, for she was considered worthy to bear and raise her own Savior—and not through any doing of her own, only surrender to the work of the Lord.

life lately

Mulling over the fact that it’s mid-November, and there are only six weeks left of another year—why does time seem to make less and less sense the more it goes by? I perpetually feel like my body is dragging my brain a month or two behind it, so lost in thought that it doesn’t comprehend the act of turning the calendar even though it’s my own hand doing it. Wasn’t it just September?

Anyway, I’ll spare you all my endless ability to marvel at the passage of time. I wanted to write something light today—something like a snapshot of my current life, what I’m doing and learning and thinking about.

Doing

• Primarily, spending a lot of time with Clara. She is two years old now and the sweetest and silliest person I know. She is speaking in full sentences, but there are still times when I’m the only one who understands them, and I’m going to be sad when that’s not the case anymore. She is inseparable from Alfie, Pooh, Percy, and Bunny-Llama (her four favorite stuffed animals) and one of our favorite things to do together is sit in the rocking chair singing hymns before bed. “Mo see sah?”

• Working out with Sydney Cummings and my sisters-in-law, via YouTube and group text. We commiserate on our pain as well as celebrate our progress. I’ve always loved working out, but I’m especially loving Sydney’s challenges and seeing myself get stronger and stronger. Clara looks forward to it every day, too!

• Going through the prerequisites to become a “member” at my church. Between you and me, I find the entire concept of church membership rather strange and possibly superfluous, but I suppose it’s the best system we have at the moment and so I’m trying to get over myself so that I can become more involved in and accountable to my church body.

Learning

• You all already know I’m taking Intro to the Hebrew Bible from BibleProject, if you’ve read my recent posts. I’m about 60% of the way through and totally enthralled. If you have even the tiniest interest in the subject, you should try this class. (They also have shorter ones on different topics!)

• I’m also learning everything there is to know about baby and toddler sleep, because why not? I had no idea how my perception of sleep would change when Clara was born—at first, it was the biggest stressor of them all, but now it’s one of my greatest fascinations. Did you know there is an enormous amount of science around how we sleep, even as babies? That there is actually a TON you can do to improve sleep quality—your own as well as your kids’? It’s so cool. I’m currently getting certified as a pediatric sleep specialist because that’s how interested I am in the topic. Yes, my enneagram 5 is showing.

• And one of my weekly(ish) highlights is learning dressage at my horseback riding lessons, which I’ve now been taking for a full year. Even though the progress seems slow at times, I can look back at where I was a year ago and see how much stronger my legs and core are, and how much better my seat has gotten. Many thanks to Pilot, Whiskey, K-Bar, and Halo for their patience with me. ;)

Thinking

• Is the risk of stifling God’s work in the world worth taking Paul’s admonitions about women in the church as changeless commandments for all times and all places? I’ve been reading a lot about what the New Testament teaches about the sexes (and how it aligns with the greater story of the Bible) and I’m starting to worry that we have, as it were, strained out a gnat only to swallow a camel. After all, “There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free, there is neither male nor female; for you are all one in Christ Jesus” (Galatians 3:28)—until you are a woman who wants to teach the Bible, and then the most important (and disqualifying) factor about you is that you are female? I do understand the idea of “equal in value, separate in role,” but even so, we have enough history with “separate but equal” in this country to acknowledge that the philosophy does not actually lead to equality in a practical sense. Even if Paul was referring to all women for all time and in all places (debatable), does God care more that men should never hear the Word of God taught by a woman, or that women should be treated as equal image-bearers and Kingdom ambassadors by men? Are we capturing the spirit of the rule or only following its letter? Are we being Christlike or Pharisee-like?

• It’s a little unnerving, but also encouraging, to consider how I’ve grown as a believer over the past 10 years since I was first in Bible school. Unnerving, because so many of the black-and-white beliefs I held then have shifted or been shaded in with detail; this can make me feel like a heretic at times, until I remember that it’s not heresy to allow the Word of God to correct and reprove the errors in my thinking, even when those errors were taught from a pulpit. But it’s encouraging, too, because even when I’m afraid of being rejected by those who don’t agree with me, I have seen that God is still faithfully walking with me, sharpening me, and molding me into something a little bit more representative of His image. It’s He, not any particular denomination or theological camp, that I am required to follow.

how did Jesus read the Bible?

As tends to happen in October, I’ve been deep in thought for the past couple of weeks about the upcoming round of Bible180 in the new year. It seems I find something to tweak either in the actual reading plan or in the creation and delivery of reading resources on an annual basis—and this year is shaping up to be no different.

What lights me up about Bible180 is, always, showing people the way to whole-Bible literacy. We don’t skip a single verse. We read it all, from the heartwarming quotes that make their way onto coffee mugs and home decor to the hideous revelations of the depravity of the godless human soul that we’d all like to pretend aren’t even in there. It is a journey not for the faint of heart.

In past years, we have always followed a loosely chronological reading plan, with the goal of tracing the history of humanity from Creation in Genesis 1 through God’s selection of Abraham in Genesis 12, and then following that storyline across all the ups and downs of the nation of Israel as they prove over and over again how desperately we need a Savior. I have enjoyed reading it this way because a linear chronology is an easy throughline to grasp, particularly when very little about the rest of the challenge is easy.

But something has been bugging me to reconsider this approach for awhile now. Conversations with a longtime spiritual mentor whose Biblical knowledge I deeply value, as well as the contents of the BibleProject’s “Introduction to the Hebrew Bible” course that I’ve been taking, have inspired me to ask a simple question:

How would Jesus have read the Hebrew Scriptures?

I don’t mean this in a cheesy “What would Jesus do?” way. I mean to ask: When Jesus was living on earth, what Bible was He reading, memorizing, quoting? Not a chronological one. And it’s not because those who canonized the Hebrew Bible were too dumb to figure out the concept of chronology.

It’s because the chronology is not the point.

He is the point.

Our Christian Bibles are arranged with a 39-book Old Testament that begins with the books of history (Genesis through Esther), followed by the books of poetry/wisdom (Job through Song of Songs), and finally, the books of prophecy (Isaiah through Malachi). The history books are arranged, sensibly, in what we would consider the closest to chronological order. When this is how we’ve consumed the Bible for our entire lives, it’s not hard to see why we tend to think of the Old Testament as the history of Israel—handy background information on the origins of the Christian faith, divinely inspired, but really not that important now that we live on the other side of the page denoted “New Testament.”

The reality is that our Bibles look nothing like the Word of God that Jesus knew inside and out—nor like the Scriptures that Messiah-seeking Bible nerds like Simeon or John the Baptist would have pored over in search of the Anointed One. Have you ever wondered, as I have every single year, what happened between the closing of Malachi and the beginning of Matthew that inspired John to start preaching a “baptism of repentance for the forgiveness of sins,” well before Jesus ever began to reveal Himself as the Savior of the world? Was John the Baptist just a little eccentric and a lot Spirit-filled, or was he basing his ministry on knowable truth that could be found in the tapestry of the Holy Scriptures?

The collection of sacred writings that John and Simeon and Jesus would have recognized didn’t convey a timeline of the important characters and events of Israel’s history, accented with poetry and prophecy. Instead, the arrangement of the scrolls that made up what we now call the Hebrew Bible or the Old Testament focused on the sweeping central theme that first begins in Genesis 3:

The LORD God said to the serpent, “Because you have done this, cursed are you more than all cattle. and more than every beast of the field; on your belly you will go, and dust you will eat all the days of your life; and I will put enmity between you and the woman, and between your seed and her seed; he shall bruise you on the head, and you shall bruise him on the heel.”

- Genesis 3:14-15

Genesis, the first book in the first section of the Hebrew Bible, raises a question that the rest of the Scriptures will continually seek to answer: Who is He who can deliver the death-blow to the enemy of humanity? Who is He who can restore the Kingdom of God on earth, as it was before the fall in Eden?

This is not a book meant to detail Israel’s history. Rather, it’s a carefully designed quilt made of select fabrics and shapes from Israel’s history, in order to present the perfect backdrop for the moment when Jesus of Nazareth appears on the stage. Those who were paying attention—people like John the Baptist, Anna, Simeon—would have had a very good idea what they were looking for.

And we say it all the time: the Old Testament exists to point us to Jesus. But can we actually see the foreshadowings of Him when we read it, or do we throw up our hands and say “Well, it shows us that we need Jesus, anyway!”?

Even after many times reading through the Bible, and many hours in study, that’s what I often end up doing. Which tells me that maybe I’m doing something wrong.

So for Bible180 2023, I’m going to try to read the Hebrew Bible in a way that’s a bit closer to how we know Jesus and His contemporaries would have read it. It looks like this:

It’s going to be a big change. In previous challenges, we’ve always read a Psalm a day; this time, in order to respect the structure of the Tanakh, I’ll be reading the entire book of Psalms in just five days—an average of 30 chapters a day. But I am excited about two things: 1) no longer having to jump back and forth between the books of the Kings and the minor prophets, and 2) waiting to read Job until the Ketuvim portion, instead of starting that overwhelming book on day 3!

Will reading it this way lead me to all the epiphanies I feel I’ve been missing over the years? I can’t say. But I have a hunch that reading according to the Messianic Hope—as the Tanakh’s designers intended—will get me closer to those epiphanies than merely reading according to the chronology has.