the Pharisees vs. the Gospel

In the not-quite-nine years of this blog’s existence, I have published 249 posts and currently have a backlog of 99 drafts. So if you’re reading this, this post managed to become the 250th post instead of the 100th unfinished draft. Random fact of the day.


One of my very first weeks at the Anglican church, a line from Father Joe’s sermon stuck with me: “In my previous tradition, the Baptist church, what we seemed to care about most was how to be really good at arguing.”

I’ve never been Baptist, but I’ve been in a fair number of churches where the primary value was definitely arguing. The “best” Christians were always in a defensive stance, holding onto the Bible as both sword and shield, as if our purpose was to guard God Himself from the people and ideas “out there.” I learned all the tactics and talking points, and I learned the Bible really well so I could make even better moves than most. When I was in it, it was fun, like playing a sport with my “team,” and all the camaraderie and belonging that entails—even though in reality, we were little more than gossips and keyboard warriors, too cowardly to have meaningful discussions with real people about real things that didn’t fit neatly into our categories.

If I had stopped there with my study of the Bible instead of digging deeper, if my life had stagnated instead of winding through periods of intense pain and change, if God had not proved far more faithful to me than I was to Him, I’d probably still be having fun playing for that team in our imaginary game—while blind to the real war trying to rip God’s Creation apart.

This is the war Jesus came to fight, not as a great arguer or even a great warrior, but as a human baby, a growing boy, a man of sorrows and a suffering servant. He expanded the boundaries of God’s holy kingdom by feasting with the poorest sinners. He rebuked those who weaponized the Scriptures by being the Word of God in the flesh. He seized authority over all Creation by bowing His neck to His accusers, He ascended to the throne of heaven by being crowned with thorns and raised up on an execution tree, and He shattered the power of death by committing His spirit into the hands of God.

And He left us with one job: to take the good news of His kingdom to every corner of the earth, welcoming people from every tribe and tongue and nation to the glorious banquet halls of His communion table, where there is no space for the greed and self-importance of the flesh. This vocation is the continuation of Christ’s mission to sew the world back together, to undo the power structures and value judgments and myriad abuses of a post-Edenic humanity through the abundant hospitality of the Holy Spirit. To usher in the New Creation.

The real war is not the old game of “my church vs. the outside world.” It’s not Christians-who-are-right-about-everything vs. Christians-who-are-wrong. It’s not cultural ideas vs. God, who needs His army of Bible-wielders to shield Him; it’s not conservatives vs. progressives; it’s not men vs. women or white vs. black or rich vs. poor.

In this country, like ancient Israel before us, it’s a lot more like the Pharisees vs. the Gospel of Jesus Christ (see Luke chapter 15).

We can all stand on the defensive around an invisible idol, protecting our small god and his many demands and limitations from anyone’s questioning, or we can lay down our weapons and come together to the table of the bounty of the King of Kings. He is delighted for anyone to repent and return to His open arms—the question is, will we, too, be delighted when even sinners are welcomed to eat at this table? Or, like the embittered older son who did everything “right,” will we resent our Father’s goodness toward the prodigals, and reveal ourselves to be a long way off from the true heart of God?

Jesus said of the Pharisees in His day,

“The scribes and the Pharisees sit on Moses’ seat, so do and observe whatever they tell you, but not the works they do. For they preach, but do not practice. They tie up heavy burdens, hard to bear, and lay them on people’s shoulders, but they themselves are not willing to move them with their finger.”

Matthew 23:2-4

This was the reality of being on that argumentative “team.” I could tell you all the right things to do and think and believe, and back them up with Bible verses—but never lift a finger to love you through your real-life pain, proving my knowledge to be meaningless.

I’ve grown weary of spending my life on the defensive for a God who does not need my defending. Let me spend it instead throwing open the doors of His love, mercy, and grace for every hungry soul I can find, whether they fall in line with my particular statement of beliefs or not.

the news is good, after all

Tonight, as my three-year-old and I were praying before her bedtime, she noticed that I ended the prayer with, “… and please teach Clara to want to follow Jesus.” I could no sooner get the word “amen” out of my mouth than she began peppering me with questions: “Why did you say Clara follow Jesus? Where is Jesus? Can we see Jesus? Why do I have to follow Him? Will you come, too, so I won’t be lonesome? When is God going to let us come see Him? On Saturday? Can we ask Him when we can come?”

It always strikes me in these moments how precious the work before me is, and how fragile. She is so completely trusting right now; whatever I say or do, she soaks up like a little sponge. Even if she doesn’t know it, her entire view of who God is and what He has done is being formed right now. And, God help me, I’m one of its foremost architects. Can I teach her what is true without breaking that gloriously innocent faith?

I want to paint for her a picture of our dazzling hope, of watching the horizon for the return of the King. I want to show her what it means to live on earth as citizens of the Kingdom of Heaven. I want her to follow Jesus because He is gentle, and loving, and good—because He’s the victor over our captors, Sin and Death, and because He’s invited us into freedom through the power of His resurrection.

And I find, as I meditate on these things, that I need these truths as much as she does. I don’t remember a time when I had her peaceful curiosity; I was a much more anxious child—merely hearing words like “death” and “hell” left me consumed by fear. I didn’t want to follow Jesus, I had to follow Jesus if I were to escape the horrible fate I deserved. For so long, when people shared what they said was the “Good News,” all I heard was terrible news: “You’re a dirty, rotten sinner and you better ask Jesus into your heart so you don’t go to hell!”

It’s taken reading the Bible many times over to start chipping away at that fearful understanding of the Gospel. To begin to see God as overwhelmingly good and gracious and kind rather than angry, manipulative, and spiteful.

But now that I see it—now that I can see His radiant goodness chasing away the threatening shadows of a fear-based faith—I cannot unsee it. It’s as if I had been walking around in a dark room my whole life and never even noticed until someone turned on the light. He is good! He is King! He has won! And He has invited me to share in the victory! The news is good, after all.

That’s the news I want to share with Clara. I want her to trust the goodness of God as completely in ten, twenty, ninety years as she does now at three. I want her to be eagerly asking “When can we go see God?” every day of her life, fearless of what might be required of her before she gets there.

And maybe, along the way, I’ll learn to do the same.

At that time the disciples came to Jesus and said, “Who then is greatest in the kingdom of heaven?” And He called a child to Himself and set him before them, and said, “Truly I say to you, unless you change and become like children, you will not enter the kingdom of heaven. “Whoever then humbles himself as this child, he is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.”

Matthew 18:1-4